Birthday mutterings & the last Year in my Thirties

So Yesterday was my 39th Birthday. As I am a January baby I am quite used to the fact that because my birthday falls just before Pay day most people are pretty poor after the festive season. I don't ask for much from my friends, in fact I don't ask for anything. Except their company in celebrating my birthday. Unfortunately as we get older it becomes harder to drag them out for a drink, meal natter - anything!
This year was no exception. I sent a message out suggesting maybe a gathering around mine. The response wasn't great to be honest - usual reasons- lack of money, other plans, no babysitter. I wasn't best pleased!
 I found myself the week before my Birthday getting very emotional and down at the lack of a support network. I know we all have busy lives and other loved ones but I felt very very alone.I found myself in some sort of Bridget Jones moment when thinking about my birthday, singing in my head "All by myself " (Eric Carmen)

Now let me point out, after nearly 3 years being single I am quite used to not being in a relationship on special occasions - birthdays, weddings, Christmas etc. This Year it really didn't bother me that I was a singleton. I was not upset about not having breakfast in bed, or being whisked away for a lovely  romantic  meal,evening or weekend. Don't get me wrong I would love that, and believe me I will milk it when it happens!  I was more upset that I faced spending the evening on my own, without the company of my friends. What made it worse was this Year the day fell on a Saturday- perfect for a few drinks!

Luckily my lovely Daughter came to my rescue and she and my mother spent the evening with me having a Roast dinner (I know, on a Saturday what a rebel!) and watching Gremlins on DVD. 

So now begins the last year of my thirties. I suppose the last year I can possibly get away with not acting grown up! This Year is twelve months of changes for the better. I have already embarked on a Yoga obsession, Pilates is my next activity to take up. I feel now I'm older I can't jump around gracefully doing Zumba, Aerobics anymore. I need something more calming and something with less chance of broken bones or pulled muscles! The calorie counting is also heading the right way. By the summer I plan to be nearer the weight I should be ! That wet suit will look a dam sight better on me this Year when I'm body boarding than the last few years beached whale appearances!

I plan to celebrate my birthday next weekend now. An old flame is visiting the area and after 8 Years its about time we met up again. So we will be raising a glass or two (and probably merry hell!) as a belated birthday toast. 

Next time any of my friends asks why I am still single I may well have to remind them that because they never want to come out socialising with me, how am I supposed to meet a man! I know its an equality world out there but I'm not brave enough to hit the town on my own in the search for a man!